Leave me the fuck alone

I know there's a chance that I hurt your feelings when I keep all my thoughts in my broken ceiling, but you didn't have to be a fucking dick about it, as hard as I try to keep being nice, and I'm sure there's a chance that my feelings got hurt when I tried to make em surface and it didn't work, but that's something I don't even wanna think about, my weaknesses shouldn't be brought to the light when the engine dies, that's something I've tried to live again, but I can't get it started, I live outside of myself all the time, and this train of thought of mine is aloft and departed, I can't seem to part with the fact that I like being lost, I'll find all my demons and kill them all off when I gather the wisdom to fight, or reverse all I've done and recede from the light, the path that I follow is not so deliberate, losing my mind to remove any fear of the end, and I can't make amends, for all of the selfish thoughts that I used to pretend weren't true, my plan is immaculate too, I'll have all your minds in the absence of youth, and you'll suffer like all of my actions
do, imagine a verbal reaction to you doing nothing, screaming "The ignorance coming! " live under eyes that'll catch if you're bluffing, speak into the ears that are blocked out with stuffing, and then all of your progress is deemed unbecoming, I won't let it hurt me beyond what it has, cause the evidence of weakness is left in the past, and I'm armored from all of the hate I've amassed by a tendency to be absentminded, I can't spoon feed the medicine to you, you'll have to come close if you wanna hear the truth, you might have thoughts that you need to remove, but attachment to pain is the life that you choose, and the road to revenge is the one that I live on, flirting with death and I'm not one to hit on, I put myself down to get broken and spit on, alone in this room with a bunch of shit songs, I'm often rejected I don't have a place I belong to, my friendships are jokes that I'm playing along with, I hide my feelings to come off as strong to, the people that I haven't been getting along with, the message I preach isn't one for the masses, it's mostly directed at myself, I have these thoughts on the daily that constantly make me believe I
don't need any help, I'm keeping myself an enigma, good job if you find me, I'm constantly thinking of hell, and all it's inhabitants eating each other in ravenous circles to drink from the well, I can't do it all, I'm itching to know what's expected of me, I can no longer tell, it might take years to recover, should I take a mortal blow from the evil I'm trying to expel, I won't stay awake when it's raining, I won't have an ear if I hear you complaining, I won't have a shred of my conscience remaining, I won't even look if I see you attaining the light, I'm gonna have to sharpen a knife, to sever by the sections affectionate ties, erasing all the guilt by attacking at the source of your life, till we die in the cloak of the night, living with the fact we're disintegrating into the ground, I wanted you to see there's a group of reminders that show all the laws that we think we are bound by, are rendered useless, you fuck with a ghost if you're choosing Rufus, and we mute your screams when lose your hubris, and I never was nice when I made conclusions, so I leave contusions, I never got the wave of benevolence until last night and I lost it
immediately, when the anger and fear didn't cease to appear and in essence I stabbed it ethereally, I look low to the ground cause I focus on things that don't change, My eyesight is strong, but the third has no range, I glance up to see that the people are so strange, yet, I'm here, a hundred minds, and no change, I sated my rage, so instead the cold came, and it hardened the sympathetic side of my old brain, I loosen association with my old name when I can, I will not stand for the act of sitting, in a time where the opposite side is winning, and it's not like the Dawn of a new beginning is what it takes, it might take a little bit of shit in your face, to remind you we haven't even started in the race, but,

let's not act like that hasn't been common.